||[Jul. 5th, 2006|01:12 am]
Taking off the pounds together with support
Well, I have not changed my diet too much. Yet. I went and walked half a mile around a mall today as exercise with my husband. Half a mile was all I could do. It seems to me that before I was on oxygen I was in much better shape, even though heavy. The exercise, however, will help my lung capacity. So I'll continue exercising in whatever form and build up slowly. I like exercise.
I ate White Castle cheeseburgers for breakfast. Yes, I know -- not good. And then I had an appetizer sampler for lunch -- fried food. Again, not good. Dinner was better -- a sub sandwich with tomatoes and lettuce. I HAVE been drinking lots of water. When I bought a drink for dinner, I put water in the cup instead of soda. I'm on a diuretic and it seems like it's doing its job. I'm hungry again and it's time to eat a bit for medicinal purposes, hmmm...and I HAVE to eat at night so that I don't put my hefty evening dose on an empty stomach.
That's a lot of food.
I AM on a medicine called Depakote that makes you gain weight. I have been on it for a long time, but the dose was increased not long ago and I have been gaining weight steadily ever since. Something to speak with my doctor about?
The thing is, most of the time I don't overeat. I admit to overeating some of the time. But I didn't get to this weight consuming gallons of ice cream in front of soap operas. I also have a slow metabolism. When I was 24, I weighed 175 pounds. I ate a normal and reasonably healthy diet, ran up and down three flights of stairs every day, chased buses everywhere, and had two jobs, one working as a waitress. I was in better shape than all my friends. And I STILL weighed 175 pounds. But I DID start gaining weight and by the time I was married in 1997 I weighed roughly 200 pounds.
Then came all the psych meds. They piled on the pounds like there was no tomorrow. I remember going to my GP after having gained 20 pounds (from birth control pills) and being YELLED AT for gaining all the weight I was gaining, and how resentful I felt because I KNEW it was the birth control pills that made me gain that weight. I never saw THAT doctor again.
My pulmonologist is concerned about my weight but manages to communicate it in a way that doesn't make me want to punch his eyes out. He's very much a genteel country doctor who gives me a full physical examination every time he sees me. He is concerned about everything about me, not just my lungs. I would say he is my favorite of all my doctors.
Anyhow, I have really wandered from the subject, or have I? A lot of MY weight problems DO stem from medication, and medication may make it difficult to lose the weight. This is something I need to negotiate with my psychiatrist about. I am now on oxygen. I am physically disabled. I get to park in handicapped spots. :)
But back to my eating habits. It's easy to see why I'm gaining weight -- I'm consuming quite a bit of food on the day. Right now I am really, really hungry. I also need to eat something to take my medication. So I'll probably go upstairs and make myself some mini-eggrolls that I can zap in the microwave.
Okay. I'm eating a lot, for whatever reason, and I'm NOT eating healthy foods. So maybe part of the solution is not only to start sneaking in fruits and vegetables into my diet but making them available for snacking. Weight Watchers pretty much promises you that you are NOT going to gain weight on vegetables, so I have to find some and start eating them. I don't like cooking. I don't like cooked vegetables. I DO like raw veggies in ranch dressing, and none of this light crap, it has to be the real deal. I also love radishes. I like scallions (green onions). Carrots are good.
I'm not ready to go on Weight Watchers. Not yet. And anyone who annoys me by telling me what to do with myself shall be shot. :)