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I am stoked! [Aug. 12th, 2006|09:15 am]
Taking off the pounds together with support

[mood |excitedexcited]

As some of you know, I was trying to lose the weight I have gained between children adn pregnancies and stuff. I was doing great until we went on our trip. I really was weak, and had an incredibly hard time staying healthy. I gained back almost all of the weight I had lost. Well on my birthday, I decided I was ready to persevere. I hadn't given up, just took a break so to speak lol! well, I have been praying and listening to the old body and In just two weeks I have lost 10 pounds! I have not starved myself at all. I eat when I am hungry, I haven't even gone to the gym. I just have tried to get out and walk and stuff. Anyway, just wanted to post cause I am excited about! here's to a healthy body!!

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Continuing Weight Loss Musings [Jul. 12th, 2006|05:49 pm]
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[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Enya]

I have concluded that the initial battle must be fought and won IN MY MIND. Without victory there, all attempts are doomed to failure. I was talking to my friend Louis today (and BTW, the new phone DOES work -- I talked it out for HOURS before it finally discharged all the way) and he was encouraging me that my doctor's prescription (no soda, sweets, bread, potatoes) really WOULD work and I ought to follow it. Also, he said that Weight Watchers is competitive. He advised me to check it out before I committed to it.

So, I'm musing. In the meantime, I'm eating up the food we bought that was bad because I don't want to let it go to waste. I think we'll save a lot of money if I go to a simple diet of meat and vegetables. Figuring out how to cook them up in tasty ways will be an issue, though!

I guess I should view this as if I had any other health problem I needed to make allowances for, such as if I suddenly became allergic to wheat or milk. I would cut them out of my diet, no questions asked. I wouldn't rebel against that because it would be clear it was needed. If I became diabetic, I would cut sugar out of my diet, no questions asked. I am being asked to lose weight because weight has become a huge health problem. I need to do whatever it takes to lose the weight, no questions asked, and one of my doctors (my psychiatrist) has written me two prescriptions -- a weight loss drug that might help, and a diet and exercise program. I probably need to try both (the med and the diet/exercise program).

I am going to continue to write about this and let you know how things go! Wish me well!

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Progress! [Jul. 6th, 2006|10:43 am]
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[mood |bouncybouncy]
[music |none]

I woke up today full of energy! Perhaps it was because the night before, I had slept the ENTIRE NIGHT without oxygen (the thing came loose). That's REALLY bad, because it's during the night that your pulse-ox drops the lowest. Also, I had had trouble with my CPAP mask. So yesterday, I felt pretty crappy and didn't get a thing done all day except for messing with my iPod.

This morning I woke up at 7:00 AM and couldn't get back to sleep. The oxygen had been going; the mask was on my face sealed tight. I keep the iPod next to me to help me get to sleep at night, so I turned on Charlotte Church. I nearly finished her LONG album and decided that sleep was not in the cards for me and got up.

I then hopped in the shower, got dressed, and actually DRAGGED A BAG OF LAUNDRY UPSTAIRS. This is not something I thought I could do by myself given the fact that I'm usually tangled up in tubing, but I did it! After tossing it in (a full load of whites), I thought about breakfast.

Were those White Castle cheeseburgers calling my name again?

Something else tempted me today. Bran flakes. With raisins. So I had a bowl of bran flakes with raisins and that's it. Not anything else. I also filled up my pitcher of water and took my morning meds.

And I have been bouncing around with energy! I cleaned the cat litter. I got on the exercise bike and went for 10 minutes (working up slow). When it cools down this evening, I hope to fill up my portable and just take a short walk around the neighborhood.

A LOT of this is because I had a really good night's sleep with the CPAP machine and the oxygen (and what a difference that made!) but this really gives me some motivation to lose weight. Not because I HAVE to. But because I'll FEEL so much BETTER!!

That's it for me today.
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Breakfast [Jul. 5th, 2006|01:59 pm]
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[mood |discouraged]
[music |none]

Breakfast: four White Castle cheeseburgers, two pieces of toast with butter, and two pieces of toast with Nutella (a chocolate hazelnut spread).

Obviously, this isn't a weight loss plan -- it's a weight GAIN plan.

In my last post, I said that anyone who annoys me by telling me what to do shall be shot. I put a smiley face after that, but I mean it. Not the shooting of course, but the fact that if people start nagging me about my diet, I am going to become more and more rebellious than I already am.

I feel very powerless over this. Yes, I know there are Overeaters Anonymous meetings out there, but I have no way to get to a meeting. I am working the Twelve Steps in general with my counselor. Hopefully this will help with my weight issues too. Plus, I have entrusted them entirely to God to solve, and I'm sure He has the solution.

I just don't know what it is.
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Reflections [Jul. 5th, 2006|01:12 am]
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[mood |bouncybouncy]
[music |none]

Well, I have not changed my diet too much. Yet. I went and walked half a mile around a mall today as exercise with my husband. Half a mile was all I could do. It seems to me that before I was on oxygen I was in much better shape, even though heavy. The exercise, however, will help my lung capacity. So I'll continue exercising in whatever form and build up slowly. I like exercise.

I ate White Castle cheeseburgers for breakfast. Yes, I know -- not good. And then I had an appetizer sampler for lunch -- fried food. Again, not good. Dinner was better -- a sub sandwich with tomatoes and lettuce. I HAVE been drinking lots of water. When I bought a drink for dinner, I put water in the cup instead of soda. I'm on a diuretic and it seems like it's doing its job. I'm hungry again and it's time to eat a bit for medicinal purposes, hmmm...and I HAVE to eat at night so that I don't put my hefty evening dose on an empty stomach.

That's a lot of food.

I AM on a medicine called Depakote that makes you gain weight. I have been on it for a long time, but the dose was increased not long ago and I have been gaining weight steadily ever since. Something to speak with my doctor about?

The thing is, most of the time I don't overeat. I admit to overeating some of the time. But I didn't get to this weight consuming gallons of ice cream in front of soap operas. I also have a slow metabolism. When I was 24, I weighed 175 pounds. I ate a normal and reasonably healthy diet, ran up and down three flights of stairs every day, chased buses everywhere, and had two jobs, one working as a waitress. I was in better shape than all my friends. And I STILL weighed 175 pounds. But I DID start gaining weight and by the time I was married in 1997 I weighed roughly 200 pounds.

Then came all the psych meds. They piled on the pounds like there was no tomorrow. I remember going to my GP after having gained 20 pounds (from birth control pills) and being YELLED AT for gaining all the weight I was gaining, and how resentful I felt because I KNEW it was the birth control pills that made me gain that weight. I never saw THAT doctor again.

My pulmonologist is concerned about my weight but manages to communicate it in a way that doesn't make me want to punch his eyes out. He's very much a genteel country doctor who gives me a full physical examination every time he sees me. He is concerned about everything about me, not just my lungs. I would say he is my favorite of all my doctors.

Anyhow, I have really wandered from the subject, or have I? A lot of MY weight problems DO stem from medication, and medication may make it difficult to lose the weight. This is something I need to negotiate with my psychiatrist about. I am now on oxygen. I am physically disabled. I get to park in handicapped spots. :)

But back to my eating habits. It's easy to see why I'm gaining weight -- I'm consuming quite a bit of food on the day. Right now I am really, really hungry. I also need to eat something to take my medication. So I'll probably go upstairs and make myself some mini-eggrolls that I can zap in the microwave.

Okay. I'm eating a lot, for whatever reason, and I'm NOT eating healthy foods. So maybe part of the solution is not only to start sneaking in fruits and vegetables into my diet but making them available for snacking. Weight Watchers pretty much promises you that you are NOT going to gain weight on vegetables, so I have to find some and start eating them. I don't like cooking. I don't like cooked vegetables. I DO like raw veggies in ranch dressing, and none of this light crap, it has to be the real deal. I also love radishes. I like scallions (green onions). Carrots are good.

I'm not ready to go on Weight Watchers. Not yet. And anyone who annoys me by telling me what to do with myself shall be shot. :)

Questions? Comments?
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Happiness [Jul. 4th, 2006|12:03 pm]
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[mood |bouncybouncy]
[music |Alanis Morissette]

is weighing about 280 pounds and your husband STILL can't keep his hands off of you...
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Hi! [Jul. 1st, 2006|01:28 am]
Taking off the pounds together with support
I'm a new member and thank you for letting me join!

I've been told by a doctor that I need to lose about 100 pounds to get off the oxygen I have been placed on 24/7 and that even then, there are no guarantees that I will get off this oxygen. But there is a good chance.

I weigh somewhere in the region of 280 pounds. Losing 100 would put me at 180. My ideal weight would be more like 145.

Obviously, it will take a LONG, LONG time to achieve these goals losing weight at a healthy rate. Also, I have a lot of fluid retention. A LOT. I think if I could get that taken care of (and we're working on it) I will initially drop quite a few pounds.

Here's the deal: I self-sabotage. Totally. This is what I had to eat today: two Whopper Jr's, a chicken sandwich, two pieces of sushi, two ham and cheese sandwiches from Arby's, and an Oreo coffee drink at Borders. And I'm probably going to get a sandwich upstairs now because all that food constituted only TWO meals and I'm hungry again, so I need to eat something to take my meds with.

Boy, am I going far, right? *sigh*

I have a strong feeling that weight loss is really going to have to be on my time and my terms so I DON'T self-sabotage. For example, I am already sneaking fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet. The next plan is to set up an exercise schedule. I am not all abashed that this might take awhile. It took an entire month to put together my current eating and sleeping schedule. Then we go from there.

I don't see any other way that this is going to work. If I attempt to put myself on some kind of diet, I actually end up over-eating or sabotaging it in some way or another. Slow, gradual changes to the way I live are the only way I see working for me.

Questions or comments?
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(no subject) [Jun. 20th, 2006|09:45 pm]
Taking off the pounds together with support

Welcome! Im not sure exactly how everyone wants to do this. Do you want to do a weekly weigh in, just random posts or what are your ideas!
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